Monday, April 28, 2008
although we used to joke in class in e past;it was all our friendship past tense;maybe we might seperate after all of your graduate;but what tutor said are e same;when all all of us graduate we all go seperate;but at least we had wonderful memories together.
i having such problems;i dare not tell baby:)i know what he is going to say and i going to cry for sure:)im trying to smile back to you.E way i saw you laughing to ur new batch of friends made me jealous.we use to be group of three together and never had secrets unknown.we are always in our groups laughing;giggling;gossipping;talking nonsense together.but now all has become a smile that i would do so to all stranger and yah;i feel so jealous when ur stupid teeth smile and ou laugh to me with that and it seems so far yet near but we know this friendship is drifting;i no longer get e lastest updates from you n mond and i would get to know it from other people.
i dont like that feeling;but will you know?i guess i would't just smile to make time go faster.my tears are rolling down without letting your guy knowing but i know myself well how i amd feeling;maybe i need to cool down alone even without e presens of baby(;i need to cool down and think through;i forcing myself to study;)but when i thought of studying i started to think of your;e stupid studying time;our prata time;and our shopping and eating time;and we are e most happy one in school:)but its all a past tense.
the present tense of me;afraid of being alone is already no longer in my mind.i can walked anywhere alone.maybe i wanted to be more independent now.i want to have more thought and its must be mature though;i should let this stop to start my life afresh;its like giving up all i have for my past 3 year.i gone through once on sec1 to adapy to my sec school life;now im going through another one.its har dto let go but im trying:)
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